Different Worlds.

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

p/s: Ini kira update eh? :)

Am I at the bridge?

Gedebuk gedebuk!!!
BAD NEWS BAD NEWS.

O'owww....o'ow....

Rasa seperti ingin pulang hari ini juga. Yok mari pulang. Lupakan segala lara dan pulang ke pangkuan keluarga.

Rasa macam nak beli kambing biri-biri pun ada, lepas tu pulang ke pangkuan keluarga. Jom.

Kasut Kita Berbeza Saiz

Ada masa, kita nampak dia buat silap.
Kenapa? Kenapa dia buat macam tu? Tak nampak ke apa yang dia buat tu salah? Kita akan tertanya-tanya. Cuba nak faham, kenapa dia macam tu. Apa yang digunakan sebagai pengukur sampai boleh tersilap langkah? Arah mana yang dia tuju sampai tak sedar jalan yang diambil itu salah? Mimpi apa yang dikejar sampai tidur tak terjaga?

Kita cuba nak faham, cuba nak selam, cuba nak rasional. Nak jadi manusia bertimbang rasa. Nak jadi understanding, supportive, reliable, dan apa-apa aje lah.

Tapi semakin kita cuba nak faham, semakin nampak silapnya. Semakin dekat, lagi terasa jauh. Semakin banyak bercakap, makin ketara gagapnya. Semakin lama semakin kita yakin, tindakan dia SALAH. Tapi kita tak faham kenapa jadi macam ni walaupun kita cuba. Dan kita cuba ubah dia, malangnya dia tak faham dan tak nampak kenapa perlu ubah. 'Salahkah saya?' dia selamba bertanya.
Saya dah faham dia, dan tampak jelas salahnya. Namun bila nak perbetulkan, jelas mustahil.

Yang sebenarnya, walaupun kita rasa kita faham, kita tak faham sepenuhnya. Walaupun sudah cuba berada di tempatnya, sudah 'put myself in their shoes' masih tak faham sepenuhnya. Kerana hakikatnya, kasut kita berbeza saiznya.

p/s: jika, hanya jika...

Yang Tersayang.

Kadang-kadang, orang yang paling kita sayanglah, yang paling susah untuk disayangi.

Ayat yang dipetik dari filem CINTA, pertama kali dengar terus saya setuju.

Sayang pada seseorang, tapi sukar nak ditunjukkan. Sama ada cinta terhalang macam dalam Dilwale, atau mungkin bertepuk sebelah tangan macam watak Nasha dalm SEPI, atau barangkali cinta yang diselubungi rasa bersalah macam bercinta dengan suami orang.

...orang yang paling kita sayanglah...

Kadang-kadang kita tak sedar, orang yang paling kita sayang boleh jadi diri kita sendiri. Sayang pada diri sendiri bukan selalunya membawa makna pentingkan diri. Sayang pada diri sendiri, tahu apa yang terbaik untuk diri, tapi hati dan nafsu tarik ke tempat lain. Sudahnya benda yang kita buat, tak menampakkan sayang kita pada diri kita. Kadang-kadang kita sedar, benda yang kita buat tak elok untuk diri sendiri, sama ada duniawi, atau untuk satu lagi alam yang menanti, tapi masih ikut hati dan terus 'menganiaya' diri. Setiap keputusan yang kita buat, ada banyak pihak yang sama-sama menimbang. Hati, nafsu, iman, akal...(ada lagi?) Sebab itu kadang-kadang sukar untuk sayang yang paling kita sayang. Bukan senang nak gembirakan semua pihak, walaupun hakikatnya ada sesetengah pihak yang boleh kita persetankan. Hmm...

...yang paling susah untuk disayangi...

Tagged.

Masa : 6.01 pm

Nama : Aishah


Sister(s) : Ada adik perempuan yang comel macam kakak dia. Muahaha..

Brother(s) : Empat orang. Tu belum kire abang angkat. Haha.

Shoe size : Tujuh, lapan. Kalau lah kecik boleh kebas kasut mak saya.

Height : 153 cm, mungkin lebih mungkin kurang. Berat tak tanye? Ke yuli delete? :p

Where do you live : Kat Newnham Terrace ni. Tahun ni summer tak jadi nomad, yeay!

Have you ever been on a plane : Belum pernah. Saya datang NZ berenang tau.

Swam in the ocean : Pernah. Tadi baru cakap...

Fallen asleep at school : Hm...seingat saya tak pernah lah. Saya lah yang paling segar dalam kelas, dari mula sampai 'Terima kasih, cikgu'. Tak caya tanye kawan2 sekelas.

Broken someone’s heart : Pernah. Saya reject SRK dulu-dulu. Kesian dia.

Fell off your chair : Pernah...saya tengah prektis nak pusing-pusing atas satu kaki kerusi, tiba-tiba hilang kawalan.

Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : Huhu..tak pernah laa...

Saved e-mails : Pernah. Dulu first year hampir semua email JPA saya save.

What is your room like : Ohoho...what do u expect? Of kos la kemas...muahaha..tapi gelap la. Macam gua. Sejuk juga.

What’s right beside you: Belah kanan? Kiri? Ada Enzo tengah tergolek.

What is the last thing you ate : Tuna Melt. Semalam pagi..saya puasa ni, tanya pasal makan-makan pulak. Isk.

Ever had…Chicken pox : Pernah kot?

Sore throat : Jarang. Tapi yang super teruk adalah tahun ni. Wah berpapan-papan saya telan lozenge tu. Tak sedaapp...

Stitches : Pernah. Dua ke tiga? Time tu saya tak payah basuh pinggan langsung, dan tak payah tolong mak kat dapur. Hehe...

Broken nose : Tak pernah

Do you believe in love at first sight : Hm....nope.

Like picnics : Kalau bawah matahari sampai berpeluh-peluh dan sunburnt tak minat kot.

Who was/were…The last person you danced with : Haha. Mimpi kira?

Last made you smile : Everybody makes me smile. Wah terlebih sudah.

You last yelled at : Semalam. Bukan yell, scream kot. Atas kapal terbang pusing-pusing kat New Brighton. :p

Today did you…Talk to someone you like : Iyer...I did.

Kissed anyone : Tak. Oh rindu pulak nak kiss adek.

Get sick : Tadi pagi pening-pening lalat, maybe impact semalam tak habis. Padahal naik bende ntah apa-apa je.

Talk to an ex : Axe ke?

Miss someone : Ada...ada...

Who do you really hate: Hmm...rahsia la, boleh?

Do you like your hand-writing : Suka sangat. Kalau boleh setiap kali tulis rasa macam nak frame.

Are your toe nails painted : Tak. Tak kose den.

Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : Makcik rumah sebelah. Best wo.

What color shirt are you wearing now : Baju Ilam 2005. Hitam, kuning, putih.

Are you a friendly person : Haha. Sombong agaknya?

Do you have any pets : Dulu pernah ada ikan laga. Nama dia Enzo, kaler biru.

Do you sleep with the TV on: Laptop on. Tv tak ada, kalau ada maybe on juga. Tak sempat tutup dah terlelap ma..

What are you doing right now : Fikir-fikir apesal la survey ni banyak nau soalan!

Can you handle the truth : Kalau pasal orang lain boleh, pasal diri sendiri..hmm...takes time.

Are you closer to your mother or father : Mak kot?

Do you eat healthy : Tak sangat la. Bahaya nih.

Do you still have pictures of you & your ex : I don't even have an ex. Haish.

If you’re having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to : Ada la a few good people.

Are you loud or quiet most of the time : Most of the time? Quiet la kot ek..

Are you confident : Haha. I am not confidently confident that I'm confident.

5 things I was doing 10 years ago
- Baru masuk SMAP. Buat kawan baru.
- hmm...susah la nak rewind ten years back. Pass je la.
- yang pasti I was way garang that time.

5 things I would do if I were a billionaire
- first and foremost, buat benda yang boleh maintain kekayaan saya.
- hm...cuba untuk tidak berlagak dan riak.
- ok, ingatkan senang tapi susah yer kalau banyak duit. Tak tau nak buat apa.

5 of my bad habits
- I'm not happy if I came home from jalan-jalan with nothing. Tapi selalu je.
- Selalu put things off. Recently I experienced the consequences. Huhu.
- Tend to keep quiet when there is a need to speak up.
- Beli buku tapi tak baca.
- Tidur secara tiba-tiba.

5 places I’ve lived/living
- Ampang
- Kota Damansara
- Kampung Pandan
- Christchurch
- Klang

5 people I tag
- siapa-siapa yang baca
blog ni, dan dia rasa dia nak buat. Kalau tak tak payah la..

Is it over yet?

Salam and good day! :)

I realize I have 3 negative entries in a row. Haha..if the deadline was to be extended, I might have ten more negative entries..ehehe..

Alhamdulillah, yesterday my mind and soul ended their marathon and I believe they managed not to tremble before reaching the finish line.

I almost had a blackout at the binding room that morning, as I was rushing like mad from home at 9 am (I had to submit in that thing by 9!!). But when I told a friend, he said "Why did you rush? Some are still working on their dissertation. I don't think you need to rush.." Aha..funny.. And being absent-minded as always, I only printed 1 copy when I actually had to submit 2 of them! While waiting for another friend binding my first copy, I went to get another one. And finally I have two copies of not-so-well-written dissertation...



There were so many ragam, some were still doing thier final editing, some are cathcing up with friends, some were helping with the binding, some were watching movie on the big new Mac screen, some were re-binding because some pages were missing from the first bound. After borak-borak a bit, I went out for breakfast. Sebab dah lama nak makan sushi, I bought a pack of 4 with 2 very small ones. Lepas makan satu, satu, I noticed the last one looks different from the rest.



Rupa-rupanya this is chicken sushi!! Haha..when I read the label it says, 'mixed sushi: tuna, bla..bla.., chicken..'. Huh... thus that one went to the bin.

Then later at 12 noon we had a small celebration as we are now done as Hons students (regardless of how we ended it hehe). We had a great talk, borak-borak pasal future plans and that sorts...sampai la kena halau from the bilik because that was some other department punya room.


This is approximately half of the class. The other half was enjoying the sun outside. Hehe

Hm...so sempena my completion of this course, I would like to forward my thanks to all friends and family yang support, directly or indirectl-y, like verbally or doa-ly, food-ly, smile-ly, teman stay-up-ly, lending ears-ly, giving idea-ly, sms-ly,having faith-ly, proof-read-ly, and all sorts of way lah. Truly appreciate it...



Only those with sincere eyes will be able to read the secret message. Haha.

So, that's about my final day of 2008 in University of Canterbury. I'm sure gonna miss my schoolbag, my bicyle, my workstation, and my restlessness everytime duedate is getting closer. It's time to doa supaya my results won't let my loved ones down...

Orait...kini tiba masanya untuk re-organize and the first thing to do is...KEMAS BILIK!!!

Trust me, the room is not as bad now...

Bungee jumping without the cable...

Yep, no cable, and I'm jumping ni...
Will I survive?? Do I have a parachute on my back? Tak sure...
Will I crush down there at the bottom? Or will my body turn light and float?
Will 'superman' come and save me? Or am I going to be hit by Beoing777?

Will wings start to grow and if they did, will there be enough time for them to develop and support my weight (which by the way have been rising lately, thanks to daily consumption of jajan)?

Please, to those who used (or still) to work hard siang malam for your studies, don't bother to read further. Because the rest are just craps of how insecure I feel right now, given my unfinished dissertation plus no final proof-read for it. And also how tired I am after so many hours staring at the monitor plus how much I miss my bed. Haha.

Now I'm reluctant to do my data analysis (just simple bit tapi saya muak ok..) and I have this slight headache which I think because I had too much sugar today (ahah pandai2 diagnose sendiri). This morning, I bought my first coke ok! Tapi coke zero. Ermm...but the point here is that this is my first bottle of coke ever that I bought for myself (haha excited mcm beli kete). It's not that I never had coke before, cuma this is the first time I bought the whole bottle for myself. Macam la big deal aye?

Anyway...this is just useless rambling before I get back to work. Oh or at least if I were to view my old posts say 7 years from now, this would be a great reminder of how kelam kabut and freak-out i was during my final week of hons year.

Yeay. Laily panggil makan. Now I have better things to do hehe.