Being pregnant

Hm...

Dulu, before kahwin, common question people will tend to ask me is "Bila nak kahwin?"
Lepas kahwin, people will tend to ask me "Dah berisi ke?"
Now, Alhamdulillah that I am pregnant, people will start asking, "Tak muntah-muntah ke?"

Haha. Kesimpulannya: People care.

Anyhow, memang bersyukur sangat saya tak muntah-muntah during my first 3 months.
Tapi of course ada baik ada buruknya. Baiknya; saya tak lembik dan perut saya tak pedih sebab food boleh masuk dan tak keluar balik (dari atas maksud saya). Saya bekerja seperti biasa, dan surprisingly office mate yang duduk sebelah saya yang muntah-muntah dan siap warded lagi. Katanya loya saya pergi ke dia. Ada ke kes macam tu??

Buruknya... tak buruk pun sebenarnya. Ibu-ibu yang muntah-muntah pada awal kehamilan akan lose weight dulu, then bila dah ok baru gradually gain weight, proportionate to the growth of the fetus. Tapi ini tak berlaku kepada saya. Saya dah gained more than I should, because I ate so much during the first 3 months. Saya akan breakfast dan dinner dua kali haha. First time in my life locker kat ofis saya penuh dengan makanan, just in case I feel hungry during office hours. Tapi yang sihat-sihat macam biskut oat, nestum, susu... semua bukan my favourite. Saya suka nasi goreng, nasi ayam, mee goreng, dan lain-lain yang kurang menyihatkan. Mana la tak gain weight ye dak.

Tapi... siapa kata saya tak muntah?

Tempoh hari, ada jamuan kecil-kecilan kat rumah kakak ipar saya. Diorang jamu satay. Satay bukan favourite saya tapi makan juga lah. Lepas makan 2 cucuk, saya relaks. Dah kenyang sebab ini second dinner saya. Habis majlis saya pun balik rumah. Rasa tak sedap badan, alih-alih muntah balik satay tadi. Tapi dalam hati saya, "ni mesti sebab makan banyak sangat, terover kenyang ni..."

Itu sekali je berlaku... tapi semalam, saya masak mee sup dan encik husband buat carrot susu. Makan mee memang super banyak sebab termasak lebih dan tak nak membazir punya pasal. Lepas setengah jam baru saya minum carrot susu pulak. Carrot susu is also not my favourite tapi minum jugak la.

Habis semua saya tak sedap badan.... habis plan nak keluar dating shopping-shopping dicancelkan. Lepas solat maghrib... semua tu selamat dikeluarkan sebab saya muntah. Jadi so far dah dua kejadian muntah berlaku.

Maybe baby saya tak suka makan satay sangat, dan dia tak minat carrot susu. Orang kata kalau kita muntah sebabnya baby yang tak nak makan benda tu. Saya rasa sebab saya terover makan haha. Tak pe mana-mana lah ye. Yang lain-lain semua baby saya makan, semoga baby saya sihat dan kuat.

Selepas baby dah selamat nanti, saya nak ajak baby dan encik husband pergi jogging lah.

Sayonara KLCC

Salam.

Dah seminggu kami berpindah office. As usual, I was so worried I could not adapt to the new office, being so comfortable in KLCC for more than 2 years. On the day they announced that we were going to move to a new office, everybody was anxious and did not know what to expect. Iyerlah, office kat KLCC, whatever you need you can find it there, tolak tepi the fact that they are normally overpriced.

Jumaat lepas lepas was our final day there. Penat betul packing sampai kaki kiri lenguh tiga hari.

Tapi bila dah datang ke ofis baru, Alhamdulillah everything was new. Meja baru, almari baru, kerusi baru, karpet baru...so nice. Dan yang paling best is that LRT dekat, dan lift naik sampai tingkat 9 je dah sampai ofis. Kalau dulu naik lift kena tukar tingkat kat level 42, kena pusing dan ambil next lift to 57. So sekarang less effort :) Bile encik husband hantar pergi ofis, drop betul-betul depan entrance jadi saya masuk jalan sikit je dah sampai lift. Kalau dulu nak kena lintas jalan, jalan lagi, jalan lagi, jalan lagi baru sampai entrance. Kena pula naik escalator lagi, tunggu scanner lagi, cabut beg semua lagi, beratur lagi. Kesimpulannya keadaan yang mudah sekarang ni sangat-sangat menyenangkan hati saya hehe.

And I love my new office! (Gambar lupa pula nak ambil). Bye-bye KLCC... I don't feel like going back to the magnificent building just yet.

Hmm... benar kata senior saya, when she said her stress level dropped hen she moved from KLCC to Dayabumi. It is soooo true.

But the only bad thing about my new office is that I walk less, but I eat more. Saya akan makan sikit early breakfast di rumah (it is my habit to eat as early as 7 am) dan kemudian sampai kat ofis saya akan beli another heavy breakfast untuk di makan around 10-11 am. Lepas tu pukul 1pm makan lagi lunch, definitely heavy one. Haha. Memang I will put on weight in no time! Dah la dah memang overweight dah sekarang....

Ok enough of that.

Saturday

Salam semua.

Hari ini hari Sabtu. Exam saya lagi seminggu. Dan saya tak buka buku lagi for today.

Pagi tadi bangun, saya buat cucur bilis. Not as nice as my mum's, sebab tak ada serbuk penaik. Sigh.

I have bee craving for cucur bilis since last two weeks, tapi tak ada yang lebih sedap dari yang mak saya punya. So last two days I went back home, cakap kat mak, "Maaakkk....buat laaa cekodok...!" sambil guling-guling atas lantai. Tapi mak saya buat dek je sebab dia tengah download lagu kat internet (fulamak!).

Tiba-tiba mak saya bercerita, "Semalam mak buat cekodok sedap gile. Sebab pakai tepung kek, tepung biasa dah habis...". "Ala mak buat laaaa cucur lagi hari ni......". Mak buat dek. Sobs. Haha kesian saya.

Ok so saya buat la cucur sendiri pagi tadi.

Husband tengah study, Haha. Nak tergelak pun ada tengok. He's taking the CUT, a test for new UTC. He's into unit trust now, and his exam is today! All the best my Astroboy!

Mmm sangat random entry ni, I just feel like writing something random and personal.

Ah, by the way, I have a little living peanut in my tummy. Alhamdulillah. So far it is growing healthily. But recently everyone seems to notice how much I have changed in size, even before I was pregnant. Haha. I weigh more than I did during my student life (I thought I was the fattest then).

Anyhow, as long as we are healthy, I am ok with it.

It's 8 weeks this week. At first no body knows about this in my office except for my direct superior, my most supportive manager. Then one day, there was a common email sent out by our floor safety manager with a list of level 57 occupants. He asked for a reply, with specific names who would require special assistance during any emergency (including fire drills of course). Sebab saya teringat that we had to WALK down the stairs from level 57 to ground floor (fuhh hebat sampai ada yang semput, masuk hospital), saya cepat-cepat hantar email to our akak secretary. "Akak, nanti akak reply email dia ni bagitau semua nama yang perlukan special assistance ye. Nama saya akak letak as 'pregnant'. Thanks". Kebetulan hari tu saya cuti so I just replied the email and switched off my laptop.

Esoknya I was back in the office. People started to congratulate me and such, so saya senyum je la. Mungkin manager saya dah cerita kat some of them the good news kot?

Then suddenly kakak manager came to and said, "Aishah, tak yah sorok2 dah ye...SEMUA orang dah tau! HAHA...Kak Marina awak tu dah email satu floor bagitau awak pregnant...." Saya terkejut sebab ingatkan dia email floor safety manager sorang, rupanya dia CC to all. Haha. So she broke the news on my behalf. Thanks kak. Less hassle for me haha. Duh.

Bile semua orang tau, things were different a bit. Ada satu masa I was walking (at my pace which is considered as quite fast by some) to the stationary locker, tiba-tiba kak Y tegur, "Eh Aishah, mana boleh jalan laju-laju lah!" Hehe, sorry kak saya tak sengaja. Tak reti nak jadi slow motion. But I slowed down anyway...hehe

Bos besar pun datang join our lunch cum gossip session, and congratulate me on the spot. Lawak rasanya. "Lepas ni boleh la I masukkan nama U kat list due date I kan... bila due?" Bos, bos, memang early planning betul. Floor saya majority adalah wanita dan mereka seolah-olah mengandung one after another. Hehe. So bos kena ada one list untuk dia tulis semua expecting mothers with due dates supaya boleh track manning.
He actually put my name since May, right after I got married. Selamba je bos saya. Thanks bos for your indirect prayers :)

Ok panjang dah ni... saya nak masak lunch untuk husband sebab lepas ni saya plan nak tinggalkan dia kejap untuk pergi wedding Ira hehe. Kesian husband saya takpe nanti kalau dia pass saya belanja dia bubble tea.

Oh ye semalam kitorang dating tengok Edward and Bella, OMG the garden wedding was ssoooooo nice!
Tapi saya dah kahwin memang tak dapat la garden wedding. Laily, ko buat garden wedding please......!!!
Oh tak pun Ana. Ana Atoy, garden wedding pleaseeeeee.....cantik sangat!
Anyway the whole story was not that bad eventhough dia macam takda story pun sbnrnye. It is just about Bella getting pregnant. Itu je. Tapi baby dia cute sangat!


Ok la gtg, Assalamualaikum.

You Are Weird, Can't You See That?

HAHAHA pinkish gile.

Ok not a good intro.

Let's do it again.

Assalamualaikum all (bajet ramai orang baca). Rasa macam good mood pulak awal pagi ni walaupun encik husband still tidur lagi (selalu aku ngamuk kalau orang bangun lambat nih haha).

Okeh, nak cerita apa?

Tadi baca blog Laily, teringat satu cerita ni pasal seorang yang abnormal saya jumpa dalam LRT tempoh hari (like weeks ago).

Ok start secara elok mengikut struktur karangan yang betul ok.

Macam ni ceritanya.... Sejak suami saya tukar kerja, kami ke ofis pagi-pagi naik train. Best tau naik train sama-sama haha. Tapi kena control gedik maknanya tak boleh nak 'hugs and kisses' lebih-lebih sebelum melangkah keluar dari gerabak. Saya amalkan hugs and kisses ye baru mood baik pergi ofis (boleh ke cerita kat sini hoho gedik gile). Anyway kita ke cerita yang sebenarnya.

Satu hari tu, saya tak good mood sebab masuk train pagi tu train penuh sangat sampai tak dapat diri sebelah-sebelah dengan husband. So masa nak babai (saya turun train dulu) tu tak dapat nak hugs and kisses cuma dapat salam dan babai dari kejauhan je sobs.

So the whole day at work was not so good. Kemudian sampai lah waktu pulang. Rasa penat semacam. And I was a bit grumpy. Sampai kat station LRT saya pun tunggu husband sampai. Bila dia sampai kami pun naik train sama-sama. Masa nak naik tu tiba-tiba ada satu mamat abnormal ni (saya akan elaborate kenapa dia abnormal) cakap kuat-kuat, "Masuk dalam lagi ye kak, masuk lagi masuk lagi karang terlanggar karang marah pulak!". Ok masa tu memang saya rasa nak ckp "Ko apahal?" tapi sebab husband kat tepi saya pun diam je dan ikut je husband saya masuk ke bahagian dalam train. Saya confuse saya tengah naik train ke atau tengah naik bas panjang. Perlu ke mamat tu jerit-jerit macam tu sedangkan sudah terang lagi bersuluh dia yang diri betul-betul depan pintu train dengan bag sukan dia walaupun luas gila ruang kat tengah train tu. Confuse kan?

Lepas tu saya mengomel kat husband, "Apahal orang tu? Gila betul, dia yang duduk kat tengah-tengah nak marah-marah orang pulak!". Suami saya senyum je, penyabar kan? :'(

Ok mari elaborate kenapa dia abnormal:

1. Dia letak bag dia tgh2 pintu masuk train tapi bila orang nak masuk train dia marah-marah suruh masuk dalam supaya dia tak terlanggar orang tu.

2. Dia pakai spek hitam (bukan letak atas kepala ala-ala stylo tapi literally wear them) walaupun masa tu dah malam pukul 10 kot.

3. Dia borak-borak dengan abang kat depan dia kuat-kuat macam orang tu kenal sangat dengan dia - kesian abang tu don't know how to get away from the nonsense conversation.

Sambung cerita.. sampai satu station ni ada orang nak keluar dari tren. Sebelah mamat ni ada seorang perempuan sedang berdiri. Tren baru berhenti je belum sempat perempuan tu nak beralih untuk bagi ruang pada penumpang yang nak turun, mamat ni dah menjerit "Oi tepi la sikit orang nak turun tu! Pekak betul!". Masa tu dalam hati saya macam nak pelangkung je mamat ni. Sedangkan dia yang block jalan tapi dia jerit kat orang lain suruh bagi laluan.

Jadi saya pun mengomel lagi kat husband sebab tak puas hati husband saya buat taktau je. "Dia ni kenapa? Gila ke apa jerit-jerit macam tu? Gila la kot...Ntah apa-apa...Bla-bla.." Husband buat muka suruh cakap perlahan sikit tapi saya still tak puas hati. "Saya rasa nak tendang je dia keluar dari pintu tu padan muka! Dah la macam orang tak betul pakai spek hitam dalam train malam-malam...gila..." Masa ni husband saya pandang muka saya and berbisik, "Shh....nanti orang depan ni terasa lah". Saya tak faham terus pandang pada orang yang duduk di hadapan kami. OMG.... Ada orang cacat penglihatan yang pakai spek hitam duduk betul-betul depan saya. Masa tu malunya rasa sebab takut orang depan saya ni terasa.. Saya cuba tengok reaksi wajahnya dan rasa lega sebab macam tak ada apa-apa reaksi maknanya dia mungkin tak dengar percakapan saya tadi. Saya mengomel pasal orang lain tapi how could he tell, kan? Rasa bersalah betul...

Jadi lepas husband saya tegur tu terus saya terdiam dan tergelak dalam hati...kenapalah nak marah-marah sangat ek.

Lepas tu tiba-tiba terdengar mamat ni tengah borak-borak kuat-kuat dengan abang yang berdiri depan dia. "Oh, kawan dia pulak dalam train ni.." detik hati saya. Saya ckp kat husband, husband jawab," Tu bukan kawan dia, orang tu baru masuk tiba-tiba dia borak macam dia kenal sangat plak dengan org tu. Kesian orang tu nak kena layan dia..." Haha memang kesian...

"Ramai orang kan naik train?""Abang tinggal mana? Saya tinggal kat ...." "Abang keje mana?"" Saya rasa train ni ramai orang bla bla bla...." Seriously kesian kat abang tu dah la cakap kuat2 the whole train can hear what he was saying.

Saya pandang husband, husband pandang saya, kitorang tergelak je mengenangkan nasib abg tadi.

Finally, sampai la destinasi mamat ni....so dia pun turun. I bet, everyone was totally relieved...

So itulah kisahnya. Semoga mamat tu berubah satu hari nanti...huhu. And I hope we will never cross path ever again.

Kisah Lama Menggamit Memori

Assalamualaikum.

Tiba-tiba rasa sayu. Hari ini saya ambil MC, pagi tadi perut cram jadi tak larat nak ke kerja.

Seminggu ni saya berulang ke Bangi, bagi 'training' pada new people who are coming on board of our shared services. Since this is not about work, let's not talk about that in detail.

Dulu, I am such a reserved person and I don't talk much to others. I could not speak in front of small audience, let alone a huge crowd. But Allah is generous, He knows how to make me better over time. He gave me JPA scholarship, He gave me the chance to study overseas. He gave me the chance to meet up with people and such. But still, saya masih saya. I did not mingle much, I knew very few people and I never held any important position while I was abroad. But the few people I got to know were among the best friends of mine. Alhamdulillah.

Then I had to continue my Honours year. That year was a struggle as many of my friends are all back in Malaysia. Or some were in other parts of New Zealand. I had to stay in Christchurch for another year. Frightened at first, but things were getting better and better, and finally that final year was a wonderful one! Many things happened and all are the memorable ones. New friends came along, some became very close to me. But still, I was who I am.

Then during Honours classes, I had to do presentation on things I have never learned. I was so nervous my voice did not come out at all. Lucky the lecturer did not laugh and everybody was actually waiting for me to speak. Finally I did my bad bad presentation with hoarse voice. That made me believe that I can never speak in front of a group of people, be it as small as 2 people or as big as a hall.

But now, dah boleh... I think I can talk in front of a big crowd, as long as I am familiar with the subject.

Hm...awatnya cakap pasai ni. Boring betul. There are days when you feel like doing nothing, today is one of those days. Sigh.

I went through my old blog entries, my friends' old entries, macam-macam memori datang semula. Nowadays we seldom read others' blog aye. We seldom update pun. Masing-masing dah ada jalan masing-masing. I once told a friend, my blog is actually for me to read. For me to go back in time, to remember what has happened, to revisit the feelings and such. Ada yang sedih, ada yang gembira.. And today, I am glad that I had many to read. Tapi sayang, my first blog was in Friendster *during my first and second year in Chch* and that has been archived somewhere.

Today I am a married person. Believe it or not, I once thought that I will never get married. That was when I was in primary school. I had many stupid thoughts really. I wanted to be a boy. I will never wear make up. I will never use a handbag. I keep my blouses and gowns and always wear my shorts. Even my great grandparent mistaken me for a boy. That was the time. And now I am a working lady, married to the best guy :) My wish is to become a boss and have a bunch of kids to look after. HAHA.

Ok dah tak tahu nak tulis apa. My husband is at work, I am all alone in front of this tv. Astro is on. I just realised Astro ni bukannya best pun. And until now I cannot remember the channels. Banyak sangat nombor, what la!

It is raining. Last 2 weekends my brother got married. So we were busy with the wedding. My sister in law is so slim. Habislah saya. I gained few kgs since I got married. Kalau ada baby best la jugak... ni totally fat. Oh my. Last week was our cousin's wedding. This weekend is the groom's side. Next week siapa pula nak kahwin? Nanti sometime in November is Aufa, then Ana and Atoy in December. Everybody is getting married :)

Kalau dah kahwin and we live in a big house like the one Shah Rukh Khan always has in his movie, best juga. Tinggal ramai2 wow. One of the challenge as a married person is to balance between your family and your in laws. Cerita benar, I sometimes cried (during the first few weeks of marriage) because I missed my mom. Haha. No matter how much you love your husband, your mom is always a priority. Tapi syurga di tapak kaki Suami. Jadi pandai-pandailah kite ya. Huhu.

Ok la itu sahaja.

I miss my friends, my student life, my bed in Ilam, my room in Unihall, my memories in Newnham, my bicycle and helmet, by laptop, my books and notes, my road trips, and all!

Ok dah2. Bye...

It is a happy ending, after all.

Assalamualaikum.

Fuh, lama bangat tak tulis di sini.

Busy? Agakla...

Tapi dulu pernah saya dengar, kalau orang tulis blog tu sebab dia lonely. Sekarang bila tak tulis maknanya dah tak lonely? Tak jugak lah...

Anyhow, setiap kali saya tulis, there's a huge gap that it is almost impossible to have all that have happened to be shared here.

The BIGGEST thing that has happened is that I am now married. HEHE. Alhamdulillah. But that was like 2 months ago ;P

Sekarang, bila jumpa orang, soalan paling common adalah, "Best kahwin?" Aduhai kalau tak best takdelah Rasulullah pun suruh umatnya berkahwin ye dak?

Yang paling best pasal kahwin ialah kita rasa ada orang ni sayaaaaaaang sangat kat kite, pastu kite pun boleh sayaaaaaang balik kat orang tu tanpa rasa segan silu. Best kan?

Ramai yang kata saya kahwin mengejut, takpe asalkan saya tak terkejut. And it is way better to be this way, tetibe je dah kahwin. Kadang-kadang tu ada juga terdetik, 'betul ke dah kahwin? Ini memang suami aku ke?'. Tapi it is such a nice feeling. Korang cuba la kalau tak percaya. Hehe.

About the majlis itself, disebabkan semuanya kelam kabut and last minute, saya betul-betul minta maaf pada banyak teman yang saya tertinggal dalam jemputan. Tak dinafikan silap saya juga sebab awal-awal xreti nak prepare guest list. Kepada yang hadir, thank you so much. Maaf juga sebab tak sempat nak bermesra time majlis. Saya rasa saya makan kat meja pengantin lama sangat cause I was having so much fun that I forgot to entertain all the guests. Huhu.

Saat yang saya takkan dapat lupakan adalah ketika mak saya mengalirkan air mata sesudah akad dilafazkan, diikuti dengan Aliah satu-satunya adik perempuan saya, kemudian adik lelaki saya pula. Rupa-rupanya mereka sayang bangat sama saya. Saya pun sayang bangat sama keluarga saya hehe.

All in all, I am so happy happy happy. Everything was just like what I wanted.

Wedding at home, tailor-made outfit and mum did the beading. Well basically mum did EVERYTHING and they were all beautiful. I got my dream colour theme of pink and blue. Dad and brothers did the porch, my brother fixed the pelamin, door gifts were self made, mum's friends did the arch, khemah all in pink and white, families and friends came, food was nice, weather was also good, photos were captured by my own brothers. Best part is that I got a life partner. I can't wish for more, it was just perfect.

Alhamdulillah.

Is happiness hiding behind sadness? Haha.

Why is it so easy to say than to do it?

It is always so easy to comfort others, but so difficult to comfort own heart with the same words.

I had a dream last night, having the chance the do PhD in Christchurch. Haha entah bila berangan ni? But it was a really good feeling, having to be so far away from where I am now. Doing something different. Seeing different people. In a place that is not totally new. So nice!

I know I had that dream because right before I fell asleep, I saw a friend's FB status saying that she just arrived in Sydney with her husband, both going to do their Masters there. Oh sangat best bukan?

I wish I don't have so much wishes, and can be contented in any ways. Because every single thing that has happened, is a blessing from Him. We just have to believe.

Why can't you like me without making me try.

Tempoh hari saya berjalan-jalan.

Bersiar-siar sebenarnya.

Kemudian masuk tandas kat Jusco. Tandas Jusco kan terkenal dengan queue yang super duper panjang (tandas perempuan sahaja, tandas lelaki tak pernah cek la pulak), jadi saya pun turut sama beratur.

Di depan saya ada dua orang budak perempuan, baya-baya darjah 5 atau 4.

Mereke berdiri dalam barisan sambil mengadap cermin tandas yang super besar.

Dan saya pun mula terdengar perbualan mereka.

"My body is always nicer than yours".

Kawannya mencebik sambil menjawab, "I am always taller than you".

Membalas cebikan, "My shoulder is always broader than yours."

Masih belum puas hati, "Ah, I know, my fingers will always be longer than yours.."

Dengan selamba yang seorang lagi menjawab, "It's ok. I will always have bigger brain!"

Senyap seketika.

Kemudian tiba giliran mereka untuk masuk ke tandas.

Dua-dua bergegas ke depan pintu, "Oh, it's squatting..." kemudian terus ke cubicle ke dua. "Oh, this one's squatting too..."

Kemudian terus pergi meninggalkan tandas dengan kecewa, sebab tak ada tandas duduk...

Moral of the story? Saya pun tak tahu, yang saya pasti selalunya bila kena beratur panjang untuk ke tandas, pasti ada sahaja entertainment untuk saya sementara menunggu giliran.

Well, DUNIA ini memang menarik. :)

Thank You.

Thank you for all the difficulties.

Thank you for making this hard for me.

Thank to you to all, who contributed to make everything seems so complicated.

May this bring me closer to Him, and may I see the silver lining within the gray sky.

May I see the beautiful garden beyond the dark forest.

May I reach that place, where ever it is, without burden and fear.

May Allah forgive me for all the things that I should not have done, but I did along the way.

May Allah grant me peace of mind.

May this end soon.

Three As

This week was a stressful week.

I can still feel the awful atmosphere even though the week has ended.

This morning, I was planning to attend a 'mengaji' class but I had to drive on my own as my mum had something else to do. After more than a month since the last time I attended the class, I remembered only 50% of the route. So I missed THE junction and was totally lost.

I changed my mind and drove back home. On my way home, I put on a motivational CD a friend lent to me.

The key things that I managed to capture was that there are 3 key As in life: Action; Attitude and Atmosphere.

These will determine whether you are positive in life or otherwise.

These would determine whether you would succeed or fail.

These would determine whether you would be able to achieve your dreams or you would keep dreaming.

These would determine whether you could overcome all the hardship and reach your goal.

And they are all interrelated that you have to have all three As to be positive in order to get a positive result.

Action and attitude are within your control, but atmosphere depends a lot on your surrounding.

That is why, I really like the lyrics of 'Senyum'.

Kalau saya senyum, awak mesti senyum sekali.

Kalau kita senyum, semua orang berjangkit.

Bila semua orang senyum, dunia tiada penyakit.

The impact of one person's good deed, would eventually benefit the whole world...

Time REALLY flies.

Assalamualaikum.

Hari ini, 2hb January 2011. Dua ribu SEBELAS! Cepatnya masa berjalan! Eh silap, berlari!

Hm betul la kata pujangga, "Time waits for no man".

Tengok date last entry saya, memalukan! It was April 2010, and as I was drafting entries in my head, it is already 2011. Makin dekat ke akhirat, makin laju masa berjalan.

Sebenarnya saya ada plan, untuk hapuskan blog ini, dan gantikan dengan yang baru. The plan was when I bought my new (now not so new anymore) phone, as I thought I could leverage on the easy access of Wordpress through my phone, hoping that I won't abandon my blog as I always did before. And that was in April last year. I did actually create a new blog in Wordpress, but obviously no entry at all. Menyedihkan.

Sooooo many things happened last year (rasa pelik bila sebut last year because it was just 2 days back) and I would not be able to cramp everything in here. I did not plan to write about it, but I might mention some that came to me as I write.

I thought 2009 was really THE year, but apparently 2010 gave me more than what I have expected.

New year resolution? Hurmm... I have some on the list, and one of them is to be able to pray better. I came across a blog that says, "Cuba manualkan solat bila termasuk gear auto". The blogger simply means that we normally perform our solat in an auto-mode, as most of the time our mind would wander around while the body performs all the routine in a solat. He recommends that whenever we realized that we were on auto-mode, quickly change to manual and remind yourself that Allah is watching you while you pray.

It sounds simple but believe me it is not.

Another resolution; not to hit others' car while driving. I came to a point that I do not feel guilty but rather mad at myself for hitting other's car on the road. I need to focus and stop eating while driving. HAHA.

So morale of the story, FOCUS is the key to success. Ada kaitan, kan?

Oh ya, another thing, not to put up hope too high that when it fails to materialize, I could still smile and digest it positively.

Like I said, I have some on the list... hehe.

Last week, as I was having lunch with a colleague, I told her, "I wish I am not here anymore, this month, next year". Maybe I should put that on the list too.

Ok, Happy New Year and please be reminded that this may not be the last entry. Hoho.